I have a ton of thoughts I want to share, but lately it seems the days have been filtered much the same as a water painter would do in a wash of grey. Okay. Just an excuse for being unmotivated.
Last night we "spun" up an episode of a T.V. show we watch when our life allows. Can anyone say On Demand.
The show is about a multi-generational-dysfunctional family. I think, it is more like a show about any of our families or families that we know. High energy doesn't mean dysfunctional in my book.
By the time the show was over there wasn't a dry eye in the house. I can't stand inane TV but this time the writers got it right.
Let me set it up as quick as I can. Picture a whirlwind of poopy diapers, elderly drivers, adoption, aspergers, candy machines, misplaced love, unrequited sixteen year old love, trying to manage angst into energy, grandpa's hidden heart condition, man too young for woman, man too old for same woman etc. In the center of this maelstrom of life is a woman and husband that just found out she has breast cancer.
Why am I writing about this? Well, it is one episode on T.V. that the producers, writers and actors got right. Remember. Somehow they, the writers, captured the "where do I go now" feeling after you first hear the heart sinking word....Cancer.
God love the caregiver, whether your care giver is the love of your life, a family caregiver, or the insurance idea of care giver I hope they all love you and want the best for you.
The one's of us with the disease need to remember, just like it is for ourselves, it is the same for those that love us...battling the Effing Evil Empire is a new thing and everyone is scared and it is a team effort.
So back to the episode.The show wife, faced her husband in tears [I was sobbing at this point] and said:
"[character] you have to promise me you can't always tell me everything is going to be all right. You have to let me be scared [her word] when I need to. Because some days I'm going to be scared and some days I'm not going to feel like things are going to be all right."
On the days you are "scared" remember that your care giver is sleepless the night before wondering if they've done everything they can for you comfort...and they are "scared".
This disease really really sucks.
Talk to you later
Yes it does. It sucks. but not nearly as hard as it would, had there been no caregiver to help you carry the weight.
ReplyDeleteGive them another hug, and then carry on.